3rd

She's a betrayer,
and I hate myself
well, nothing new then ?

I made this decision when I was younger;
never tell anything to anyone
anything that I will regret someday
' keep it to yourself ' I said
and I broke that promise

Stupid little girl
how stupid little girl I am

Don't I remember what the book said to me:
"The beasts are stalking every step of yours
they want to destroy you
with their evil little lies and sweet intriguing promises
never trust them, my love"
***

He is sleeping on the couch
intoxicated again
rumbottles beside him
Smelling and snoring
Oh, god I hate him

It's dark in here
filthy, greasy, lonely
He is a wreck
Everyone sees it now clearly
I hope he won't wake up before morning

" oh god, shut up, and sleep, please, shut up and sleep"
***

I look at myself
the mirror looks back
and what do I see?
A monster, human parody !
I can't take this anymore
This is not who I am
this. is. not. goodenough.
Got to do something
wheresthemeds.